Oh, know you not that angels are near you?

This is because I don't blog anymore.

On accident.

Okay maybe on purpose. 

It all has to do with time, I suppose...

In the literal two seconds before rehearsal started in the Conference Center yesterday, I managed to take a FANTASTIC picture of my incredible good looks, and the organ pipes. It's impressive, I know. 

These days, if I have a second to blog, I...well, I don't. 

Instead I'm memorizing music.

Or driving to Salt Lake.

Or working.

Or dragging my bum to the gym before the sun gets up.

Or putting gas in my car. (Really though...the Costco gas station almost thanked me by first name yesterday.)

I've wanted to say something so many times about what a cool experience this whole choir thing is turning out to be, but every time I start to write a facebook status or write it on the old blog, it just seems so trite. So then I'll think about texting someone like my mom or my sister, but it seems such a waste to just tell one person...plus how do I describe that in a text? 

So I just tell myself I'll write it down in my journal as soon as I get home.

But then I get home way past my bedtime, and do you think I write it in my journal?

Noooooooooooooo. :) 

Head hits pillow: zonk.

I see my roommates on Sundays (...uh...usually...)

I see other people...uh...in rehearsals? Or at work? Or never.

Sometimes I see my family on a Sunday.

But if I do that, I pay for it the whole next week with exhaustion.

They only live 2 hours away, but...I have to do it in one day, and that's 4 hours of driving, and...there are only so many hours in the day. ESPECIALLY on a Sunday.

And can I just SAY again, for the record...dating is so odd. Everybody's story starts out so happy and sweet and fun and exciting...and then...THEN. BAM. 

That's random, I know. I just find myself wondering how it all goes awry sometimes.

And how I don't really have time for the drama these days...it would completely incapacitate me, and I think that might be a problem. :)

Ha! I promise I'm not whining, but it sure sounds like it, doesn't it?

This whole early mornings/late nights thing...worth it?

100%.

In little moments. 

Like when we're in rehearsals, and singing those words just calm everything down.

"Come unto Jesus, He'll ever heed you, Though in the darkness you've gone astray. His love will find you and gently lead you from darkest night into day."

"Come unto Jesus; He'll surely hear you...Oh, know you not that angels are near you?"

The best part of singing those words last night was feeling and knowing there really were angels near, even during a rehearsal. I've felt that before, but it never really goes away. The words by themselves are nice...but there's something about singing those words, and hearing the rest of the music fit all around it so intricately and perfectly...it's in those moments I find myself able to breathe. It's in those moments I feel like I remember my Heavenly Father does love me...and that the busy schedule doesn't matter. I have had more prayers answered through music in the past month than I've ever noticed before.

"I, your Lord and Master, now become your servant. 

I who made the moon and stars will kneel to wash your feet.

This is my commandment, to love as I have loved you.

Kneel to wash each other's feet as I have done for you."

Every time we sing those words, (you should hear the arrangement...it's completely beautiful.) I just cry. Because I'm a girl? Because I'm tired? Because of life? Eh. Maybe. But mostly, I love how personal the gospel is, and how personal my relationship with my Heavenly Father needs to be...because of His love for all of us. 

I feel like I'm quieting down these days, and it's a weird phenomenon. Instead of talking to a friend or a roommate about something that's going on, I find myself thinking about it more than anything else. I don't even write about it, and I usually do. But...let's just say I'm looking forward to General Conference this weekend more than I ever have before. I'm excited to sing, but I will always love the answers I find and learning from the words of living prophets and apostles. 

The blessings just keep on coming...I'm just trying to keep up on my part, I guess. :) 

And speaking of blessings...I'm so gonna be in Hawaii in June. :) I've never been, and I'm SO excited!! Maybe if you've been, you should tell me where to go/what to do. Seriously...I'm dreaming about it.