Still processing, and it feels good. :)

General Conference fills me. 

I'm still processing...looking over that list of things I feel like I need to do better, or pay more attention to, or make further notes about things I feel like Heavenly Father is giving me comfort or direction...marking answers to my prayers and questions I had before conference commenced...still processing. I'm sure I'll have more to say later. :)

But for now, I just wanted to say that. It really just fills me, and I'm so incredibly grateful for General Conference.

I love it so much.

I also love that it's online already. I can watch or listen to anything I want to watch or listen to all over again. My only problem now is picking where to start. :)

Favorite website ever:

http://lds.org/general-conference/sessions/2011/04?lang=eng

And just briefly on the whole General Conference note: once again, I know Heavenly Father answers our prayers! Sunday afternoon, I realized I had an additional question/need as the session was starting. I like to write them down by at least the day before conference starts so I can really be listening and paying attention to what I need, you know? But this was a last-minute "Hey, I know it's...well, late, but...there's this one last thing I wonder..." kind of thing.

And don't worry, I cried all through the next talk because it was a direct answer to my question only seconds before. (clarification: cried as in tears sneaking out of my eyes, not as in sobs...haha.) I already knew He answers prayers...it's just that I feel like I'm usually waiting for certain answers. But maybe the thing to note here is that the almost instant answers I have felt lately have had to do with needing comfort or assurance. They're not giant proclamations of things I should do...turn left, turn right. They are little flecks of light, or gold (if you will. do.) that I keep accumulating. It is fabulous.

General Conference is full of these kinds of things. That's just one I could share. :)

How do people live without the gospel? I really don't like picturing it.

* sigh * Also, I'm getting released as Relief Society President this next Sunday...and I have to say...it really almost makes me cry every time I think about it. I wish I could even come close to fully verbalizing how much I have loved this calling, how much I have learned, and how many times it has humbled me exactly when I needed to be humbled; pulled me out of my own troubles at the very moment I could have sunk into frustration and sadness. It has been so much work. So many meetings. So much responsibility. BUT: callings are blessings; they really really are, and I'm so very sad to see this one end.

Women truly are incredible. To know I am a daughter of my Heavenly Father is priceless. I am so grateful to be one, and to know so many quality women. They really do shine. Elder Cook said so much so perfectly of what I feel about the women in my ward, and the women I know. But I think I love most how Elder Scott described his wife: 

"I know what it is to love a daughter of Father in Heaven who with grace and devotion, lived the full feminine splendor of her righteous womanhood."

I don't know how to explain why hearing those words of validation and appreciation means so much, but it just truly does. To know He is also speaking for our Heavenly Father only further strengthens and amplifies my testimony that it is all true. He knows us. He knows what we need. He knows who we are, and what we are worth.

If you think he cried a lot during his talk, imagine what I was doing, especially when he said that. (Okay, me and probably every other woman listening...)

Haha. Yep. That's how we women are sometimes. I'm not apologizing for it because it's a good thing. :)


Remember that part in the beginning where I said something about this being brief?
Oops.